A staggering statistic has emerged in my efforts to educate the team and ask for support from both team and the participants in my workshops:
1) While not a single team-member responded to my e-mail offering help or with an interest in facilitating change at HAI, one team-member wrote back sharing her story of PTSD from her time on team.
2) While not a single participant wrote expressing an interest in challenging HAI to be safer or offering support, a psychotherapist called me asking to tell her story of losing her capacity to professionally help abused children as a result of her time with HAI. She lost her ability to work, help others and was in so much grief years later that she burst into tears while leaving me a first phone message.
I suspect, given the unprecedented steps that the facilitator body and board have taken to cut off my e-mail accounts, ask me to keep this secret, ask me to sign a contract keeping this secret and suing me to shut this website down through a European court (that is "into-me-you-see" for you), that this is scratching the surface of the amount of pain, grief, trauma and betrayal of the team and participants associated with HAI. The reason this is important to protest is because at some point in the denial process willful ignorance becomes criminal negligence and a committed pattern of abuse in which victims are silenced to avoid changing the power-structure and protocols that directly correlate to the abuse.
If you want to be heard, if you want to participate in pursuit of a goal in which HAI adopts best ethical protocols or shuts down to avoid hurting more people, you can do so here. Please be aware that I am making a documentary about sexual abuse in America, traumatic abuse and therapeutic abuse and ignorance. All information gathered in my process of bringing these patterns to light will be featured in the documentary, though I am happy to work with you to avoid unnecessary exposure, given our culture's pattern of shaming/blaming abuse survivors to off-set our cultural shame and guilt for failing to respond, decade after decade, to a problem that affects 25% of Americans who are participants in sexual abuse in a culture that shame's them with taboos of silence and invisibility.